Equilibrium Everyday, applying now!
- Feb 6, 2022
- 3 min read
Using Equilibrium everyday is something which has become second nature for me now.
This bottle in the photo is one of my current working bottles. I use this one all the time...it is my first bottle choice, all the time. In a consultation, the first choice is the best of my purpose, a potential for how I show up here at this time.
This bottle is the bottle, not only do I choose first all the time but the one I chose first the first time. When I surprised my self and followed this inexplicable feeling to pick it up. It was as if my chest opened and all the thoughts, knowledge, meditations, stuff secret to me, my own private world that only I knew about within me was opened to the air, laid out in organisation in the light. It blew my mind, nobody but me knew this, and here I was.
That night after my shower sitting on the edge of my bed, I re-read my instructions on how to apply, looked at the bottle, turned it a around a bit. My mind was empty with only the sound of crickets, not really sure of what I was doing, a bit like taking an awkward lead in a dance, fumbling to get a hold on what I was doing. The energy of this bottle earlier in the day had revealed me to myself in a way nothing had ever done. The majesty of that moment had made me a little uncertain of myself in the quiet dark of my bedroom, so I stared at it.
I'm not sure what changed the moment. I opened the bottle checked my grip, shook the bottle, nothing seemed to mix, nothing seemed to come out, then something did come out. I was weirdly building a sense of distress as I shook banged and squeezed out a drip, a couple of times, that I wasn't going to have enough.
This bottle was recommended to rub around the whole chest, the heart area in a band. As I'm thinking, "Oh no, I don't have enough". a part of me countered the thought with, "Just trust, she said that it maybe a little." So I rubbed it on, feeling the lack of being able to reach around to the middle of my back area. Totally had enough And that was that, simple, no fanfare, no trumpets, just me half naked turning in knots..
I remember putting the bottle lid on. Then as I lay down to sleep a voice said directly to me, "Right, you're here! Let's Go!" The whole night I travelled through worlds, through lives of other people, animals, beings. I was downloading information about people, emotions, manifestation in relation to colour. I was awed by how things manifest in life as they lived, breathed, every molecule, a vibration of colour, it was so dynamic, so fluid and so fixed. All night almost non-stop. When a life ended there was an end moment, a heartbeat, a breath then off again. It felt like thousands of lives we travelled and lived in, observing and learning. Thousands of combinations of colour, many I'd never seen before and possibly never will in physical life.
The next morning it was my body systems waking up that brought me back. I was still travelling, I've always felt that if I didn't have my body to wake me I wonder if I would have. It felt as if I was still me and the part of me that experienced was the part of me that had to get my daughter off to school and myself to work. I didn't feel as if I had left a part of me behind was altogether.
I could write and write on about this, it supports me and motivates me everyday. Though it happened over 22 years ago now, it is as close as moving my fingers into the ether beside me. I've had many experiences using Equilibrium since. It is different for everyone. All I know I found something so intangible as a reflection of my soul through a process of alchemy put in a bottle and made tangible that I can put it on my body. Each time I use this bottle, I could say it is like meeting an old friend but that is not intimate enough. It is like meeting myself in a totally naked, simple and true way...plus it makes me laugh out loud.
Namaste to you, my fellow travellers.
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